AvesLacrimosa

I finished my essay just in time yesterday. *yaaay* 
It's the first time since i was like 10 that i actually do my homework? At least that's how it feels. 
It's been 1½ year since i graduated from my marine biology school, and now i'm catching up with what my teenage self wouldn't handle. It feels really good that i'm done with part one. Now i can focus on drawing :3 
I'm thinking of drawing alot but i'm not actually drawing alot. I don't know what that is, some takeoff and then there's a big booom and I start gush out drawings like a shotgun?
Well i guess that if i just start, it will be easier to keep doing it. Obviously.

Now I need some brunch. I love brunch. I love food. I love to eat.

I aint got nothing done with mah studies...
BUT i have deleted a lot of crap from my gallery and I'm so proud!
Now i don't have much left, but it's ok. And the things that are left aren't really amazing, but that's also ok.
I just upload what I do and then in a year we will see how I've improved. 

I'm a bit scared for Inktober. It will be crappy, but i will do it and complete the challenge.
I need to accept that it's crappy and not like i want it to be, because now it's time to start doing something and practice! 

Ok hi!

I'm really tired.

So, I'm at Veronika's house, trying to understand the distance study platform Hermods Novo. 
I'm studying Swedish 2 in five weeks *yaay*.

Instead of reading right now I'm looking at pretty ink drawings at Tumblr. and DeviantArt. 
The reason is that INKtober is coming up and i'm still in a huge artist's block period. 
I've never done a drawing challenge like inktober before. I tried "a photo a day" 365 days, but i did like 25..?
It wasn't funny because that challenge was on Facebook and every Facebook addict joined and they like made up their 
own rules and no one really knew anything about photography. It all became a thing where people took a picture with their iPhone on a ugly dog, and asked "Do you like it with or without the white vignette?" NO. No I don't.
Anyway, I didn't feel like i could get any inspiration from that project. All stupid iPhone photos on my timeline made me sick.

Back to drawing-> I've been drawing a lot more lately than before when i did not draw xD apparently.... I'm trying to draw as much as possible, so that i can maaaybe be better one day. Right now it feels like i will never be any better, but i know that's not true.
It's just that it seems like i'm hella scared of putting that pencil on the paper. WHAT IF IT ENDS UP LIKE A FRICKING BAD BAD DRAWING. 
Why would that be so horrible. Wow i made something really ugly. Like, what?

Now, I will study for a while and i write to you later. *inhale* *exhale* Bye! 

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